Prelude in G minor

I just watched a movie, which even superficial as it was, really made me think.  Maybe it was the story that brought out some old ideas and present beliefs. The plot is really unimportant, what matters is what it awakened inside me.

For some time I’ve been thinking that people don’t appreciate what they have, as they should; and it grew inside me, stronger and stronger until I managed to find a way to paint my thoughts.

None of you appreciate what you have, and probably I don’t either. We just take it for granted, don’t see the beauty in every sunrise or sunset. First we consider the sunrise mundane, then the sunset, then the whole day…then the whole year. Who do we think we are to do something so horribly horrifying as that?! Who are we to stop appreciating a ray of light, a drop of rain? As simple as they are. We have become so ignorant that, when we do realize, it becomes painful.

We should love every second, every little thing…every drop of rain in a storm. We should stop taking things for granted and realize how lucky we are to be able to experience it all. To be loved. What more is there to ask?

Sad.

Please, don’t forget to appreciate a finger…a kiss.

“Why?”

“movie scenes”

Him : Ohh you gotta show me that british accent of yours!

Her   : Noo waaaay.

Him  : Please?

Her    : *takes his glasses and puts them on like a granny and starts talking on her nose* Why hello my love. How do you do?

Him  : *gasps*

Her    : Ehh?  See, now I’m the lady in Sherlock Holmes book. *winks*

Him  : *laughs*  You are simply amazing!

Her   : *innocently* Whaaa..? What did I do this time? *pretends worried*

Him : You’re a  dork! And I loooove it!

Awake

#1: *poke*

#2: ZzZzZzZz….

#1: *poke poke*

#2: ….mmm…

#1: …are you sleeping?..

#2: …mm..

#1: …sleeping?

#2: *opens eyes* NO. I’m perfectly awake.

#1: Well, i wanted to tell you that i’ll sleep some more today. *falls asleep*

Me jumping from one subject to another

Goood morning!

I’m extra-super-mega-terra-excited-nervous-curious-adored-adventurous-inspired-jolly-crazy-happy this morning.

I just feel so good this morning, because i want it to be a good morning. And so it is, i’m controlling my life! I feel powerful! Mwahahaha. This is gonna be a great day, a great week, a great eveeeerything!. I’m stupid sometimes, but, *cough cough*…a little, which is normal. It would be weird if i wouldn’t be. That would mean bad-ugly-dark-twisty stuff. But none of them now. It’s sunny outside, it’s Christmas, it’s Z+5, i have a red nail and don’t know if i’m ever gonna get along with it.

I also tried the shit with smelly candles. I don’t like lavender, in fact i kind of hate that smell but still tried it. And hey! it does not smell. I didn’t feel anything anyway.

I need that freakin’ camera, i’m wasting time, money and precious ideas.

Laura- out.

PS:  Pokey, Bullwinkle and Rocky are saying HI.

Scissors Sisters – I don’t feel like dancing

Here we go again….

Cum nu se putea sa fiu eu ratata…iata:

1.If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

Hmmm. Pentru a miia si o suta oara repet: depinde! Omu tot om ii, si toti gresim. Acum…conteaza daca e o greseala sa nu.  😉 Oricum, increderea ar fi relativ sfaramata dupa un asa experiment, insa nu ne dam batuti, nu-i asa?

2. If you have a dream you’d like to come true, what is it?

| E / | | |  . Here.  Mhmm.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

Vecinului de la 8, profei de geogra si engleza, and…just any guy owning a red mustang would do it.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

As dona bani proiectului “Teleportare”. Mi-as cumpara o casa, cat de mica in America, as calatori, as da bani pe tampenii, mi-as lua un aparat foto asa cum vreau eu…si na. As investi.

5. Will your best friend always be your best friend?

Asta e o intrebare relativ cretina. Ma intreb daca raspunde cineva cu nu…dar eu va zic un da clar si raspicat.

6. Have you ever been in love with 2 people at once?

Hmmm. I don’t think that can happen. But yeah, i liked more than one person in the same time. Intotdeauna unul dintre sentimente e mai puternic.

7. How long would you wait for someone you really loved?

Even when you’re holding somebody else’s hand  you don’t stop waiting. It’s not really a matter of how much you want to wait.

8. If you won the lottery, would you quit the job?

Pai, eu sper sa ajung sa fac ceva ce imi place. Atunci nu cred ca as renunta la job, poate doar as face in asa fel incat sa lucrez mai putin. Poate mi-as deschide o clinica *shurgs*

9. Who is on your celebrity top 5 … you know, the ones … that if you ever had an opportunity …

Deci. Unu anume care arunca si el cu muzica buna in mine de fiecare data cand deschid calculatorul. Accentul ala ma termina. Turner. *daaaaa stiuuu. dati-va ochii peste cap* dar eu vreau doar sa vorbeasca. Nu ma intereseaza daca e cretin. Chiar nu ma intereseaza. Poate sa si povesteasca cum a fost la curse sau ce a visat. Nu prea e relevant.

10. What sucks the life out of you?
Grijile. Continua incercare de a-mi reveni. Paranoia.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

Nu vreau sa ma imaginez in nici un fel peste 10 ani. Asa cum o sa fie asa o sa fie….totusi nu ar strica sa stau intr-o casa mare, cu prieteni, sa rad, sa fiu fericita. Si nici el aici nu ar strica.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

I don’t know her. She’s a complete stranger to me. I’d like to know more tho. [ mwahahaha *hug* Ale ]

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but pour?
Mi s-a mai pus intrebarea asta. Daca as fi married and happy then yeah. Better married than pour. I wouldn’t like to be single and rich but…yeah. Can’t i have something in between? Is it really like that? Married or single? I just want to be loved. Nothing would matter then. I think?

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Imagine my cell drowning in water tank.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?

Da. Indiferent de cate ori o sa o patesc. Daca nu ai risca, si ai trai intr-o cutie…., cum sa spui ca “da. Mi-am trait viata.”. Asa cum e ea.

17. Is your career vitally important to you?

I just want to like what i’m doing. If it would bring me enough money to be comfortable it would be great. And my theory says ” If you do something you like, you’ll be among the best at it.”

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?\

Nu o sa bag chestia cu “Forgive but not forget”. I would forgive. People do mistake. It’s not my job to judge. It’s their problem. Sincer, nici nu imi imaginez ce ar putea face cineva atat de grav incat sa nu mai uit si nici sa nu iert.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

Having one. But you know, not just for the sake of it. If i do have one, i want to be loved, and to mean something to me. Than something fake…better single.

Dupa bunul meu obicei. Inchei aceasta serie de intrebari. Daca cineva doreste totusi sa raspunda, sa pofteasca.

Nu-mi bag nasu’ in oalele voastre.

I feel good, tanananana!

Yeah, indeed. I feel good. I feel fine. Hehe and no, i’m not on pot.

I’m glad i have him, I’m glad i have her, and all the other friends and people around me. I’m glad to be safe and feel different, I’m glad I’m growing every day.

I had an exceptional weekend, with sleep, movies, jokes, puns, inside jokes, walks along the riverside, music [lots of music], chocolate and sweets… and talks in the cold dark night.

I love spontaneus inteligence and my new alphabet. I love today, and yesterday and probably next day.

I’m planning to love the whole next period of time.

Else…i have nothing much to say.

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You woudln’t believe me

You don’t know what I’ve been through. You’ll never guess. I’d tell you but you wouldn’t believe me. You’d say i made it up. You’d roll your eyes and say ” Soo overreacting”. You’d say I’m crazy, that i have imagination, that i can act. You would do anything but believe me.

And what? Now you want to know what i’m talking about. Why would it matter? You’d say it’s a lie anyways. You would laugh and giggle, you’d take it as a joke. You would say i’m teenagerish, that it’s all in my head. And, what the heck! Maybe it really is. I wish it was. I wish everything was a dream and i woke up with a strong feeling that it really took place. But the fact is…i’m not that stupid. It really happened, it’s there, staring at me, pacing in my mind, never leaving. And it’s not like a killed anyone.

I just killed innocence.

I guess that when they say “The best way of hiding the truth is to expose it” they’re saying a much bigger truth than you would ever think.

Later add: I’m happier than you would ever believe.

Danger! Brain increasingly thin – butt increasingly fat

Why would we believe the new commercial about the super, extra, mega new weight loss lotion?

…because it’s just stupid to believe that there is a way of loosing weight without doing any kind of exercise. Why would i care if there was discovered the new “Loose weight in 8 minutes” patch? I’m sure there will be someone to invent the “Loose weight in 7 minutes” patch, with the same result. Guys! it’s just a piece of plastic that you can stick on your belly, arm, neck…brain and which supposedly will let you eat you beautiful healthy meal in front of the tv, and when you get up, you’ll have the body of a model.

…have you really never thought like this? if there would really exist something that can make you thin in a fingers snap, why would there be increasingly, more and more people who are over weighted? Why don’t they just all buy patches, stick’em to their butts and become super thin?

Your brain was made for you to use it. Not to stick weight-loss patches to it.

Against the wall with light in my eyes.

Someone is curious about the answers imma give to some questions. Old habits die hard, so, i am ending this “tag” thing here at this moment. If anyone wants to answer, be my guest, but i’m not sending it forward to anybody.

If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

Firstly, right now, i can’t really imagine myself in the said position but…generally speaking, i would probably give him another chance. I am a very understanding person, and i know people are people, and they can make mistakes.  So, depending on the way all happened, he might get another shot. There is always important, how i find out [if he tells me or i find somehow else], how much i trust and know him…and other stuff. Because, now really, that might have just been a mistake. Kind of overacting might cause further regrets. As an advice, you should all be calm and try thinking out of the box, no matter how hard it seems.

If you have a dream you’d like to come true, what is it?

Right now? oooh i love these kind of questions. They hit me in the right spot, haha. I won’t really talk about dreams, because dreams is a way too big world to be thrown around like that, but my wish is …coming close to…uhm…a dream. So yeah, i’d rather be in a different place right now.  I’m not spilling all the beans.

Whose butt would you like to kick?

Oy! I’m not a pro-violence person, but there are 2 or 3 certain people who i wouldn’t mind getting hit by a piano.

What would you do with a billion dollars?

Hmm…billion dollars? Sheesh…that’s kind of a lot of money. Soo…i think i’d have enough to do all i want. I don’t want cars, i don’t want diamonds. I would probably…give an important part of it to someone who needs it, and maybe solve the problems in question 2 and 3. *wink wink*

Will your best friend always be your best friend?

Yes. For the first time, i’m sure about that. We already decided to go in the park at 90years old and scream “Rock on!”. Imagine…yes. Of course she will always be my best friend. There is not one thing she doesn’t know about me, and there is really no thing she doesn’t understand. I am proud of myself for finding her. *big grin*

Have you ever been in love with two people at once?

That is a stupid question. I already think hearts are too small for one love, and you’re asking me about 2! There is never love and love. It could be crush -love. Or simpathy-love. Or …attraction-love. But never ever love-love.

How long would you wait for someone you really loved?

This answer will scare the shit out of some people who might find themselves reading this, but, the answer is: enough for them to come.  And that’s that.

If you won the lottery, would you quit your job?

I’m in high school right now anyway, but i wouldn’t quit my  job as i wouldn’t quit school now. I like to see myself over the years doing something i like. Not doing something for money.

What celebrity you would like to meet? and why?

I would definitely like to hear a real Sheffield accent for myself. Ain’t it? *wink*

What sucks the life out of you?

Oh. That’s easy. When i can’t trust someone i am supposed to…that is one big “sucker” of life. Then, i guess just like everybody, exams, worries, and anger, fights.

How would you see yourself in ten years time?

This is way the hardest question…i’m trying to imagine and i can’t. Will i be happy with the loved person? Will i be where i could be happy? will i do what i like doing? Will i be the best in what i do?…I can only hope.

What’s your greatest fear/phobia?

hmm. My greatest fear is…is…of loneliness? aren’t we all like that? Being left out in the “cold cold night”? I wouldn’t like to know. There is also the fear of not being able to decide the right things. Not being able to stand up to expectations maybe.

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Well i don’t know him that much, but as far as i can see, he is alright. 🙂

Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Definitely married and poor. I don’t have doubts about it. I’d have love, i’d have a shoulder to lean on, a family so a home. What would i have if  were rich and single? Just a cold pillow filled with dollars to hold at night.

What’s the first things you do when you wake up?

During working days: wash my face and teeth, get dressed, drink yogurt.

During week-end: stay a little more in bed, open the computer for music and then go take a shower.

Would you give all in a relationship?

I always do that. So far it went well, at least i had no regrets. Relationships and love are about giving it all. You are supposed to be happy thought the other person. You are supposed to become one soul. But that’s just me, you do what you think it’s best.

Is your career vitally important to you?

As i have already stated, all i want is to like what i’m doing. Theoretically, if you like it you are one of the best. Then money flows easily. So everybody is happy.

Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

Yeah. I always do that. That’s the way i am. I will forgive you sooner or later. Even if that’s not today…not next week or month.  I will forgive you for about anything…but forget?…i don’t know. Probably not. Depends alot on who you are to me, and how horrible is the thing you did, the circumstances in which it happened, but one thing is sure. I forgive.

Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

I’m only saying this: I’d rather be single than in a superficial relationship.